I’ll be honest.
I’m starting to worry.
Am I dying?
Target: 1500 words
Written: 1183 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: Time For A Tiger, Anthony Burgess
Comics: WildCats Adventures 8-9, Wildstorm Rising 1, Grifter 1
Music: Fishbone, FishboneCategory: health
shrinkin’
I wish, but I don’t feel like I could ever open up to a therapist.
I like the show though.
Harrison Ford is one of my spirit animals (we share a birthday… Patrick Stewart as well, which is equally cool).
(Also Julius Caesar and Cheech, so you know, pretty good crew.)
Target: 1500 words
Written: 1421 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: Call For The Dead, John Le Carre
Comics: WildC.A.T.S. 7-10
Music: Fire Water Burn, Bloodhound Gangrelaxed achievement?
It’s weird what a massive burden having a clear to do list on a regular basis can do for one.
Portugal (and subsequent crushing depression) really put me far back; being able to do some of the things I’ve pushed off from day to day feels really good. Like more relaxed.
Getting ahead.
Progressing.
Progress, not product, am I right? (First draft done.)
Target: 1500 words
Written: 2674 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: Liza Of Lambeth, W. Somerset Maugham
Comics: WildC.A.T.S. 0, WildC.A.T.S. Trilogy 1-2, WildC.A.T.S. Sourcebook 1
Music: Fingertips, They Might Be Giantspeople are so happy
I alone am sad.
I alone have a blank face, twisted in agony.
Sorry. Quoting Tao in reverse.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 2010 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: Planets, Carl Sagan (inspired by the return of Artemis II, watched the whole thing last night)
Comics: Team 7 v4 5-8
Music: The Final Countdown, Europelaidback
I don’t know why I get this all the time. People seem to think I’m zen.
My response is usually, you don’t know me very well.
It’s not laidback; it’s defeat. It’s resignation.
It is surrender to hopeless.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 2715 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Crime Studio, Steve Aylett
Comics: Gen 13 v4 33-36
Music: Family, Cat Stevensi’d like to hug keanu
I don’t know why.
I just do.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 1919 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Legend Of Bagger Vance, Steven Pressfield
Comics: Gen 13 v4 29-32
Music: A Fight For What Is Right, Closet Monsterstrokin’?
I’m re-reading the scene I wrote yesterday and I have questions about my mindset.
For example, I used the word dude instead of dug, and referred to someone getting on their hands and knees as being on “all floor”.
I might be glitching out.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 584 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Legend Of Bagger Vance, Steven Pressfield
Comics: Gen 13 v4 21-24
Music: Fever To Tell, Yeah Yeah Yeahsgood friday
You know what? It was a good Friday.
Time off, time to write, time to read and play video games?
I’ll fuckin’ take it.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 1428 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: Harry Potter And The Philosopher's Stone , J.K. (don't call me Joanne) Rowling
Comics: Gen 13 v4 13-16
Music: Ferment, Catherine Wheelwelcome to the shitshow
Holy fuck. Couldn’t focus on anything at all today.
Failure of a day. Failure of a man.
I think maybe it’s time to go.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 878 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: Harry Potter And The Philosopher's Stone, J.K. (don't call me TERF) Rowling
Comics: Gen 13 v4 10-12, Gen 13: Armageddon 1
Music: Fegmania!, Robyn Hitchcock & The Egyptiansfuckin’ weird, man
Strange things are happening today. My body appears to be doing things without my mind, and my mind is doing things and forgetting them completely.
Who’s in charge, you say?
I’ve no idea.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 1421 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Kandy-Kolored Tangerine-Flake Streamline Baby, Tom Wolfe
Comics: Gen 13 v3 2-5
Music: Fear Of A Punk Planet, The Vandals