is there anything more exhausting?

Than sitting through eight hours of training over Teams, where you don’t even get to do any hands on activities?

Fuck me, I don’t have that kind of attention span.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 896 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: The Black Unicorn, Terry Brooks
Comics: Grifter & Midnighter 5-6, WildC.A.T.S. Armageddon 1, Wildstorm Revelations 1
Music: Frank Black, Frank Black (Black Frank is White)

brainfog

Training all day. Being utterly bored. Other people’s drama.

It’s enough to make a guy want to go to bed.

And not in the fun way.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 1545 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: The Black Unicorn, Terry Brooks
Comics: Grifter & Midnighter 1-4
Music: The Fragile (Right), Nine Inch Nails

linguistics world/view

I was watching a webcast on the preservation of indigenous languages (as I am wont to do) and a very intelligent federal employee by the name of Mandy sent my mind spinning in a manner few have lately.

It was her assertion that language and culture often have a symbiotic (my words, not hers) relationship, that language forms culture and culture language, that got me thinking, but another participant’s story about how frustrated she’d gotten with her grandfather in trying to translate some from his language to English (I’m sorry, I don’t remember the language now), and how he’d responded.

She wanted a word for resilient, a straight, word-for-word translation and he wouldn’t give it to her, because it doesn’t exist; in his language and culture, resilience wasn’t just a label, an assigned word; like many other things, it required description to truly carry the essence of resilience. A tent that stands up to Arctic winds without tearing. A man with the strength to travel weeks on end to his deer meat caches in order to feed his family in the winter.

That’s resilience. And it struck me that describing things that way resonates the actual meaning so much more clearly than a simple word can. It isn’t literal, as her grandfather told her; it’s felt sense.

Mandy’s assertion from the shores of Great Bear Lake were that in her culture, language comes from a different place, a different method of thought. Because in her culture, when one speaks and acts, when one considers their lives, it’s never, as it so often is in Western culture, and white North American culture (American culture), about solely you. Every thought, every communication, every action; it’s all in context, with the understanding that we are not separate from the world; we do not live in void. Our actions, our words, our thoughts – they happen as part of the larger universe, of the larger world, the larger community.

The larger family, even.

So, when we speak and when we act, we act and speak with all that in mind. And their language reflected that; the concepts, the methods of speaking, were reflected in the words and style. Her assertion was that these concepts, this language, needed to be taught, so that the culture of understanding where we exist in the world, that we are a part of it, and not separate from it, would not be lost in this me-me-me society we find ourselves in.

It was a wonderful truth, and I agree – the more we think in terms of ourselves as part of the greater picture, and not as the whole world, the better off this world would be.

(And yes, I recognize the irony/hypocrisy of not knowing what the languages were; I could find them again, but after three days of trying to get to this, I’m squeezing it in where I can, and I’m not in a position to research it just this second – it came from a work site, and I’m not able to log in – I’ll post it later when I have the chance to find it, in addition to any resources I can find that might help keep these languages alive).

Target: 1600 words
Written: 1279 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Castle Of Wizardry, David Eddings
Comics: WildCats 3.0 24, Warblade: Razor's Edge 1-3
Music: The Four Lads Greatest Hits, The Four Lads (I think there's five of them)

progress?

I got an offer to train in something new at work.

Thank heaven. I was starting to get bored there.

Phew.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 2180 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Gregor And The Marks Of Secret, Suzanne Collins
Comics: WildCats v2 16-19
Music: For Those About To Rock, AC/DC

process vs 4.0s

I was thinking about Tom Sterner’s note of the conundrum of actual learning versus the grades-based culture of modern education. How if a 2.0 and a 4.0 GPA go up against each other for the same job, the job will go to the 4.0 every time because the 4.0 represents to our product-based society the most potential.

On the other hand, if the 2.0 had focused on learning what they needed to learn, learning to live in the process, but not scoring well, they’d have nothing to show for the fact that they knew more and were better long term learners than the 4.0.

It’s presented as a paradox, but the more I think about it, it doesn’t matter. Maybe it matters to the hiring party, but functionally, having learned to live in the process, the 2.0 is better off in a thousand different ways, including self-sufficiency and quality of life and presence.

Are they really disadvantaged? They actually know how to do things. They know stuff. They are enjoying the process, and that always attracts attention.

I don’t know. I’m not sure it’s all that dire. That’s all I’m saying. Would that we could do away with the grade system in favour of, you know, actual learning, and I think we’d all be better off.

Target: 1500 words
Written: 1287 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Against The Fall Of Night, Arthur C. Clarke
Comics: Spartan: Warrior Spirit 2-3, Grifter 4-5
Music: Fixed, Nine Inch Nails

funny how that works

You wake up, things seem like they’re going tickety-boo, and then all of a sudden, it’s three o’clock and you’ve only done distracted things and shit for other people.

And yet it seemed like you had so much time.

If that ain’t a metaphor for a wasted life, I don’t know what is.

This workin’s for the birds.

Target: 1500 words
Written: 2028 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Time For A Tiger, Anthony Burgess
Comics: Wildstorm Rising 2, Grifter 2, WildCats Adventures 10, WildC.A.T.S. 21
Music: Five Dollar Bob's Mock Cooter Stew, Mudhoney

unproductive start of april

Well, that shit went way off the rails.

Way off.

Target: 1500 words
Written: 310 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Harry Potter And The Philosopher's Stone, J.K. Rowling (look, I know, but it is a good book, and before she radicalized on the trans issue, she was actually quite liberal.  Calling people out is one thing, but she's a perfect example of how weaponing outrage can actually turn possible allies into monstrous enemies - not that she doesn't need to take responsibility for her beliefs, but all those angry fans ragefarming against her definitely caused her to double down, over and over, until she's little more than a MAGA mouthpiece now.)
Comics: Gen 13 v4 6-9
Music: Feeling Strangely Fine, Semisonic

fiscal year end

Not my end. My fiscal end always feels imminent.

Nope, just my workplace. Which means reviews, scrambles, last minute struggles, and hopefully, a fucking raise, finally.

Lord knows I’ve done the work.

Target: 1500 words
Written: 1648 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: The Kandy-Kolored Tangerine-Flake Streamline Baby, Tom Wolfe
Comics: Gen 13 v3 14-16, Gen 13 v4 1
Music: Feel Good Lost, Broken Social Scene

building a path

I mean, I’m a bit off today because yesterday was St. Patrick’s and I have to get right in there and get back to work, but I’m starting to think of possibilities that might help me move forward.

I’m thinking of possibilities that might break me free of this dreary life.

This bland and weary work.

This modern malaise.

I am planning.

Picking a way forward.

Target: 1500 words
Written: 2163 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Code And Other Laws Of Cyberspace, Lawrence Lessig
Comics: Superman/Gen 13 2-3, Gen 13 v2 54, GenActive 2
Music: Family Tree, Bjork