And not productive.
This is one of those days where no matter what I touch, it’s kind of fucked.
You know the days.
Days that hate you.
Like today hates me.
Maybe tomorrow will be better.
But Trump still runs the U.S.A., so probably not.
Target: 1200 words
Written: 730 words, novel: Bad Neighbours
Read: Agent To The Stars, John Scalzi
Comics: Black Science 11, Deadly Class 10-11, Low 6
Music: Everything Went Black, Black FlagWhat a difference a year makes.
I may be an anarchist looking for the total responsibility of total freedom at heart, but I’m also a firm believer in compassion and community.
And if I had the choice of country to live in, Canada could hardly be a bad one, despite what assholes like Danielle Smith and Pierre Poilievre would have us become.
So, happy Canada Day to those that celebrate and for those Canadians who consider a lying, narcissistic, fascistic con man somehow a better representative of goodness than the millions of Canadians would rather just be nice to one another…
Fuck you.
If you love the States and Donald Trump so much, go there. Get the fuck out.
You hear me, Danielle? How about you, Pierre?
Get the fuck out.
Target: 1200 words
Written: 1196 words, novel: Bad Neighbours
Read: Agent To The Stars, John Scalzi
Comics: Deadly Class 7-8, Low 3, Black Science 9
Music: Everything To Everyone, Barenaked Ladies (it IS Canada Day, after all)That doesn’t mean anything; it just means Trump is deranged and about to start World War 3 with Iran, all while his own country descends into total chaos.
There needs to be another vote, like yesterday. Surely, there’s buyer’s remorse.
There is such a thing as a recall vote; they need to implement that for presidents as well.
Here, I’d just like ranked voting, so I can voice my displeasure with Carney’s globalist, big business agenda while not automatically handing the election to the fascists on the right.
It’s the biggest swindle going; the gravy train never stops for corporations, and we all lose our actual choice, so that we don’t descend into authoritarianism under guys like Harper, Scheer and Poilevre.
What a fucking scam.
Target: 1200 words
Written: 1275 words
Read: Metrophage, Richard Kadrey
Comics: Fathom v8 5-6, Fathom: The Core 1-2
Music: The Essential Cyndi Lauper, Cyndi Lauper (okay, not totally on board, but I respect what she's done for women and LGBTQ+ communities, and she has a song about rubbing one out, so that's cool)I’m taking the day tomorrow. Mostly, because we’ve been asked to take care of our granddaughter for the day/weekend (yes, sir! No problem, sir!), but because I am spiralling. I’m really not in a good place for work.
I feel like I’m behind, overworked, disorganized, putting way too much personal pressure on myself to meet standards and targets, and that’s not just work.
It’s me, fucking myself up.
Self-destructing, as always, and wanting to scrap it all and start again.
But I’ve done that too often.
I’ve come too far and I’m out of time.
After all, Donald Trump’s fascist state may invade or bomb us at any time. The psycho’s capable of anything, if it feeds his sad, little ego.
So, yeah.
Taking the day tomorrow.
Fuck Donald Trump.
Target: 1200 words
Written: 1106 words, novel: Bad Neighbours
Read: Ender's Game, Orson Scott Card
Comics: Fathom v6 8, Aspen Universe: Decimation 1-3
Music: The Essential (1955-1983), Johnny Fuckin' CashSly Stone dies and my sister lives another year. Good for her.
Not that she shouldn’t live another year. Like all the people I love, I hope she lives until I die, at least. After that, well, I hope for her sake she lives a long time, but hell, I’ll be dead. What would it matter to me?
Then again, there’s always reincarnation. Maybe I’ll come back as a vibrator.
Assuming I’m bought by a Hollywood starlet, that’d be cool, I guess.
Or a carrier of the Republican virus, in that it only targets individuals who voted Republican, and rewires their brains to be permanently set on Mr. Rogers.
Now, wouldn’t that be a nice cleanse?
Sometimes, I think the stars aligned and decided: there is something truly, profoundly wrong with this guy.
Target: 1200 words
Written: 1715 words, novel: Bad Neighbours
Read: Ender's Game, Orson Scott Card
Comics: Fathom v6 1-4
Music: Equal Strain On All Parts, Jimmy Buffett (fuck you, it's better than you think)It’s winery tour day in Essex, Kingsville and Harrow and the stretch between, to be fair, and I can’t wait.
I love fancy shit like that, as long as it’s not too fancy and formal.
I wanted to go to Paglione’s on my birthday last year and we ran out of time, so I’m excited.
This area is up-and-coming in wine, a historically good growing area and with climate change, one poised to make waves. French wine is still higher quality, sure, but there are some wineries doing truly inspired work around here (and up in Prince Edward County and Niagara – and out west in the Okanagan Valley).
Canadians never get credit for anything but maple syrup, poutine, curling and hockey, but damned if we aren’t among the best in the world at a whole bunch of other things, up to and including being goddamned nice.
We’re the Rodney Dangerfield of the Western world, if Rodney were actually just a really super nice guy who actually didn’t care whether he had that much respect.
Target: 1200 words
Written: 1172 words, novel: Bad Neighbours
Read: Blackbirds, Chuck Wendig
Comics: Fathom: Blue 3-4, The Four Points 3-4
Music: Energy, Operation Ivy (amazing)Well, I guess that’s it.
I’ve been torn in a thousand different directions, feel like I’m way behind on everything, and now, I have to go into the office three days out of every week, thus losing an hour of my day to prep and commute (not to mention the little moments I sneak on breaks and lunch to write, read, etc.)
This is going to hurt.
Fuck my life.
And fuck Donald Trump.
Just because.
Fuck him.
Target: 1200 words
Written: 2408 words, novel: Bad Neighbours
Read: Blackbirds, Chuck Wendig
Comics: Fathom: Kiani v4 4, The Four Points 2, Fathom: Blue 1-2
Music: Endtroducing, DJ ShadowIt’s been a long time since I went to a concert, and Avril Lavigne wouldn’t exactly be my first choice, but I’m looking forward to it.
Not only is it huge good dad/husband/uncle points, it should still be pretty fun. I’m not a huge fan or anything, but as far as bubblegum pop goes, she’s hardly the worst thing out there.
You couldn’t drag me to a Lady Gaga show, and if the word boy band has ever been used to describe it, I’d rather exfoliate with hydrochloric acid.
(The first is dramatically overrated and the second is the apotheosis of everything wrong with the corporatization of music.)
Still. Could be cool, and the girls should love it.
What’s the word for when it makes you happy to see the people you love happy?
Oh, right.
Compersion.
I’m hoping to be fully compersed.
Target: 1200 words
Written: 765 words, novel: Bad Neighbours
Read: The Pilgrim's Regress, C.S. Lewis (what the fuck am I reading? World's greatest strawman arguments?)
Comics: Fathom v5 6-8, Fathom: Kiani v3 1
Music: The End Of The Innocence, Don Henley (he says, revealing how uncool he truly is)Jesus, fuck.
My life is flying by.
The anger is palpable; we are a day away from a match being lit that leads to an explosion.
Please let me survive.
Target: 1200 words
Written: 741 words, novel: Bad Neighbours
Read: Casino Royale, Ian Fleming (if you thought Bond was misogynist in the movies... holy shit)
Comics: Fathom: The Elite Saga 3-5, Fathom v5 1
Music: The End Of Silence, Rollins BandI’m not sure the doctor was right. I’m still getting cramps in the morning, even with the doubling of the medication.
They are slightly less, but maybe it’s just covering up a larger problem?
Like pretending Trump isn’t the second biggest threat to the planet (tops being Putin, because he controls Trump and is actually trying to bring about the collapse of freedom worldwide. Trump’s just a narcissistic idiot surrounded and influenced by Nazis, grifters and monsters – which is a very dangerous thing in his position, but still, he’s not the puppetmaster. He’s too dumb for that).
Anyway.
Covering up problems.
Sweeping them under the rugs, stuffing them in closets and under beds. Ignoring the trash can out back.
I guess it’s the same in both politics and medicine.
Target: 1200 words
Written: 3257 words, novel: Bad Neighbours
Read: Casino Royale, Ian Fleming
Comics: Fathom: Kiani v2 2-4, Fathom v4 7
Music: End Of A Century, Blur