thanks

I’m still alive. I’m not broke (yet). I’m not American (hallelujah) or Russian (even more hallelujah). I’m not some hateful right winger.

I’m not done.

Not yet.

Also, it’s Thanksgiving in Canada.

Target: 900 words
Written: 303 words, novella: The Mungk

Read: The Wishsong Of Shannara, Terry Brooks
Comics: Once And Future 16-18, Die 16
Music: Unknown Live Things, Sonic Youth

new prologue

And new epilogue. The Mungk rolls on, unperturbed. It slithers out from under the bed, crawling up the walls, pure shadow, indistinguishable from the rest save a restless uncomfortable feeling just beneath the heart and sudden, panicked suspicions of something, something, there’s something there and it’s watching and waiting and hissing in my ear…

And in the end, when we’re drifting off, drifting away, on the verge of nightly annihilation, comes a soft, sick whisper…

Target: 900 words
Written: 1389 words, novella: The Mungk

Read: The Wishsong Of Shannara, Terry Brooks
Comics: Die 15, Once And Future 13-15
Music: Live Things, Rolling Stones (so much Stones)

restless dogs

I’m not sure what was going on with Sofi, but it felt like she woke at least twenty times last night, moving around and cuddling up and pushing away and just generally being a pain in the butt.

Plus, the LEDs on the new mini-splits we got to heat our house (which work great as coolers, less as heaters) seemed very bright. I don’t know what was going on.

Things conspire to rob me of my rightful rest.

Great, now I sound like some long dead hero or evil god in a fantasy novel.

Torak, am I.

Ironic that the guy writing a whole book on the darkness of night should find himself more disturbed by unrelenting blue light.

Target: 900 words
Written: 358 words, novella: The Mungk

Read: The Wishsong Of Shannara, Terry Brooks
Comics: Die 13-14, Once And Future 11-12
Music: Live Things I Found On My Computer, Red Hot Chili Peppers (I should explain - at one point, I had a shit ton of bootleg stuff laying around.  It was all labelled and such, but then, MICROSOFT AND APPLE, and something happened to rename all of them to 4 random letters, stripping them of all metadata.  It sucked, and while I've put the names of the songs on them, I have no idea where they came from, just the song and the band names.)

the yankees are still a thing?

I didn’t think they were any good anymore. Like not terribly, but comfortably mediocre, like most teams.

I like baseball, but do people actually care anymore?

It requires a patience and attention that doesn’t really exist in our Instagram/Snapchat/TikTok world.

After all, why have a long-lasting memory when it can just disappear in twenty-four hours. I wonder if this generation’s instances of Alzheimer’s are going to spike because of the lack of long-term memory-making abilities.

Everything has to be a filter; nothing real, nothing dirty.

Unless they want to cancel you, then even the hint of an accusation can destroy a person’s entire world. That’s something I struggle with; where’s the line between believing victims and voiding one’s own ability to determine bullshit?

Because let’s face it, in this era, everyone can make themselves a victim in a heartbeat, by referencing feelings. I hear it all of the time, and while in many cases, there’s legitimacy, in a lot of cases, it’s herd mentality, jumping on a trend to abdicate one’s own responsibility in one’s own life.

Framing is everything, and I think it behooves us to be both harsh in the judgment of those who would exploit others and open-minded to the possibility that maybe not all accusations are legit (intentionally or otherwise – sometimes people just can’t see that their hurt or spite isn’t the whole picture).

Anyway, how we got to me treading the line on cancel culture from baseball, I don’t know.

Target: 900 words
Written: 192 words, novella: The Mungk

Read: The Wishsong Of Shannara, Terry Brooks
Comics: Once And Future 8-10, Die 12
Music: Live! The Ramones! Woo!

mousse

It’s funny how such simple things can bring such joy. Chocolate and water. A splash of vanilla and a blender.

One night in the refrigerator.

Endless toppings, endless satisfaction.

Yet, easy enough for a child.

And yet, so fucking bad (it did not turn out great).

Target: 900 words
Written: 1584 words, novella: The Mungk

Read: Queen Of Sorcery, The Mungk
Comics: Once And Future 5-7, Die 11
Music: Even More Live Crap I Have Lying Around, Pearl Jam

ptdr

AKA, the bane of all work’s existence right now.

Would that they could communicate changes before they expect you to endure them.

Target: 900 words
Written: 745 words, novella: The Mungk

Read: Queen Of Sorcery, David Eddings
Comics: Once And Future 3-4, Die 9-10
Music: Live Things, Nirvana

lights on, no spin

I’m talking about my dryer, but I could be talking about my brain.

It’s technically functional; but it’s not engaging. There’s no heat, no spin.

Nothing but a light click that signifies nothing and has no effect other than my frustration.

Can it ever just be easy, for an extended period?

Target: 900 words
Written: 325 words, novella: The Mungk

Read: Queen Of Sorcery, David Eddings
Comics: Once And Future 1-2, Die 7-8
Music: Live Shit, Local FUCKING H (talk about bands that bring it live)

morning watch

I’m on the front porch this morning with Sami, Soft and Mazy, all of whom are keeping a close eye on the sidewalk for trespassers, squirrels and worse:

OTHER PUPPIES.

Sami doesn’t really give a shit, because he’s a cat, and cat’s don’t give a fuck, but Mazy and Sofi?

The first sniff of another dog and we go into full protect mode.

It’d be heartwarming if it wasn’t so obnoxious.

Still, it’s impossible not to love, and that goes for anything.

Target: 900 words
Written: 447 words, novella: The Mungk

Read: Queen Of Sorcery, David Eddings
Comics: The Wicked + The Divine 43-45, Die 6
Music: Live Things, Linkin Park

wine headache

My parents showed up unexpectedly last night for a porch visit, which turned into three bottles of wine and the complete derailing of any plans I had for reading, writing, et al, etc, et whatevera last night.

And now I’m hungover.

This is not shaping up to be the catch-up weekend I was hoping for.

Target: 900 words
Written: 1990 words, novella: The Mungk

Read: Queen Of Sorcery, David Eddings
Comics: Die 3-5, The Wicked + The Divine 42
Music: Again With The Live Stuff, Iggy Pop

it’s a day for staring blankly

I feel like my body is about to burst from my skin, and yet, the only thing I want to do is sit and stare blankly.

Being a vegetable seems cool to me, somehow.

I worry I might be a bad person; on the other hand, maybe I don’t give a shit.

Target: 900 words
Written: 328 words, novella: The Mungk

Read: Club Dead, Charlaine Harris
Comics: The Wicked + The Divine 40-41, Die 1-2
Music: Live Shit, Green Day