billy joel

My niece loves Billy Joel, and I can’t help but think we didn’t raise her right.

I mean, she’s a teenage girl. What is she connecting with? His bland, insipid, lifeless form of mediocrity is among some of the worst examples of popular music to ever exist.

You don’t need uptown girl or the piano man, child.

You need therapy.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 1466 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: The Black Unicorn, Terry Brooks
Comics: WildCats Nemesis 3-6
Music: Fox Theatre, Sublime

beertown wedding

These are separate things, but the same day. I do not look forward to tomorrow.

Forward.

Tomorrow.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 994 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Castle Of Wizardry, David Eddings
Comics: Warblade: Razor's Edge 4-5, WildCats Nemesis 1-2
Music: The Fox, April 10, 2006, State Radio

linguistics world/view

I was watching a webcast on the preservation of indigenous languages (as I am wont to do) and a very intelligent federal employee by the name of Mandy sent my mind spinning in a manner few have lately.

It was her assertion that language and culture often have a symbiotic (my words, not hers) relationship, that language forms culture and culture language, that got me thinking, but another participant’s story about how frustrated she’d gotten with her grandfather in trying to translate some from his language to English (I’m sorry, I don’t remember the language now), and how he’d responded.

She wanted a word for resilient, a straight, word-for-word translation and he wouldn’t give it to her, because it doesn’t exist; in his language and culture, resilience wasn’t just a label, an assigned word; like many other things, it required description to truly carry the essence of resilience. A tent that stands up to Arctic winds without tearing. A man with the strength to travel weeks on end to his deer meat caches in order to feed his family in the winter.

That’s resilience. And it struck me that describing things that way resonates the actual meaning so much more clearly than a simple word can. It isn’t literal, as her grandfather told her; it’s felt sense.

Mandy’s assertion from the shores of Great Bear Lake were that in her culture, language comes from a different place, a different method of thought. Because in her culture, when one speaks and acts, when one considers their lives, it’s never, as it so often is in Western culture, and white North American culture (American culture), about solely you. Every thought, every communication, every action; it’s all in context, with the understanding that we are not separate from the world; we do not live in void. Our actions, our words, our thoughts – they happen as part of the larger universe, of the larger world, the larger community.

The larger family, even.

So, when we speak and when we act, we act and speak with all that in mind. And their language reflected that; the concepts, the methods of speaking, were reflected in the words and style. Her assertion was that these concepts, this language, needed to be taught, so that the culture of understanding where we exist in the world, that we are a part of it, and not separate from it, would not be lost in this me-me-me society we find ourselves in.

It was a wonderful truth, and I agree – the more we think in terms of ourselves as part of the greater picture, and not as the whole world, the better off this world would be.

(And yes, I recognize the irony/hypocrisy of not knowing what the languages were; I could find them again, but after three days of trying to get to this, I’m squeezing it in where I can, and I’m not in a position to research it just this second – it came from a work site, and I’m not able to log in – I’ll post it later when I have the chance to find it, in addition to any resources I can find that might help keep these languages alive).

Target: 1600 words
Written: 1279 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Castle Of Wizardry, David Eddings
Comics: WildCats 3.0 24, Warblade: Razor's Edge 1-3
Music: The Four Lads Greatest Hits, The Four Lads (I think there's five of them)

it’s been a day of revelation

Apparently, cutting grass and listening to post-Hoon Blind Melon will do that to someone, in that now, this far in, we see the shape of our lives as carved by our worst enemies.

In my case, crippling depression that I’ve mostly learned to live with, though it’s stolen so goddamn much from me.

So goddamn much.

I want to talk about language and culture and modes of thought, but this damn depression, and this damned lack of time.

So goddamn much.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 1785 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Castle Of Wizardry, David Eddings
Comics: WildCats 20-23
Music: Fossil Fuels: The XTC Singles Collection 1977-1992, Discs 1-2, XTC

new ways of thinking

Or old, technically. I have a whole thing to think about involving the nature of language and culture and ways of thinking, and…

Nope.

Someone’s here to pick up my brother’s dog.

Thoughts are for tomorrow, I guess.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 998 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Castle Of Wizardry, David Eddings
Comics: WildCats 3.0 16-19
Music: Forty Licks, The Rolling Stones

back to this again

Some people are just fucking awful.

I thought we’d moved past this, and things were starting to get better; instead we fall back into old patterns.

Manipulative, selfish, deceitful patterns.

I want to walk away, but I can’t.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 1958 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Castle Of Wizardry, David Eddings
Comics: WildCats 3.0 12-15
Music: Fortune Faded, Red Hot Chili Peppers

sometimes, my notes make me laugh

It’s like ongoing comedy at times, like when I pre-tank my book sales because of the florists’ boycott, or when I mistype said as saiad, and immediately decide that this is the new name for a depression nymph.

All this to avoid thinking about the slap in the face, the spit in the eye, the return to stupid games and lies by one of the most selfish individuals we have in our life.

Christ, I’m tired of insecure narcissists and their manipulative selfishness, with no regard as to who they hurt, or the last effect of their lies.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 2588 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Dead As A Doornail, Charlaine Harris
Comics: WildCats 3.0 8-11
Music: Forth, The Verve

breakfast chili

Chili is my favourite thing to eat and cook, and I love to experiment with it – there’s so many versions a person can make.

Today it’s ground beef and chorizo, with the usual spices, some cayenne and jalapeno for heat, and, oh yeah.

Bacon.

How’s that for breakfast food?

Target: 1600 words
Written: 1761 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Dead As A Doornail, Charlaine Harris (very disjointed, this series)
Comics: WildCats 3.0 4-7
Music: Forgiveness Rock Record, Broken Social Scene

big jump

Father Lightning swelled from forty nine thousand to almost sixty-three, in just one draft. That’s a big jump. I don’t think either of my previous efforts had that kind of jump.

Kudos to me, for either overwriting or strongly expanding the narrative.

With a potential lot of fluff, and some good new ideas I had while editing, the third round seems like there’s maybe some potential.

Fuck, I hope this is good.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 2901 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Dead As A Doornail, Charlaine Harris
Comics: WildCats v2 28, WildCats 3.0 1-3
Music: FOREVER, Cracker (FOREVER)

i miss my babies

Nyka, Loki, Magnus, Cassie, Isis.

Man, we’ve lost so much.

So much.

I don’t know why today, but man, I’m gutted.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 1826 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Dead As A Doornail, Charlaine Harris
Comics: WildCats v2 24-27
Music: Forbidden Place, Meat Puppets