But hopefully, not the last forever.
If everyday, I could look out my back door and see nothing but wilderness and lake (and ideally, front door and all windows as well), life would be utterly perfect.
Life is utterly perfect right now.
Perfect.
Target: 1600 words
Written: 1293 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Stand, Stephen King
Comics: Invincible Presents: Atom Eve & Rexsplode 3, Invincible 70, 70.5, 71
Music: Frogstomp, Silverchair (also forgot how good this was)And other such fun. We did get out for lunch, which was nice, but yeah. If I’m going to be stuck in my cabin all day, maybe it shouldn’t be with the whole gang, and no time to read, and a goddamned plugged toilet minutes before I go to bed (not my fault).
I’ll be honest. I am short-fused when I don’t get that sweet, sweet alone time.
It is something I wish the people around me truly understood.
It is something the world, in its current incarnation, barely understands, with its constant notifications, constant connection, constant updates.
Never was a world more lonely than the one where no one ever shuts up.
Target: 1600 words
Written: 2604 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Stand, Stephen King
Comics: Invincible 68-69, Invincible Presents: Atom Eve & Rexsplode 1-2
Music: Frizzle Fry, Primus (fuck, I forgot what a killer album this is)See, that’s what I love about up here. The penchant and desire for kindness and neighbourliness is so strong that the big local scandal is people who put up fences between properties.
Now, I understand the need for fences sometimes. Our Great Pyrenees would be halfway to B.C. if we didn’t have a fence in our backyard.
But I get it. Barriers between people seen as an affront.
How could that not be a wonder?
Target: 1600 words
Written: 1038 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Stand, Stephen King
Comics: Dynamo 5 24-25, Invincible 66-67
Music: Friends, The Beach Boys (not today, with these fences, apparently)Today, I return to the cold depths of Lake Temagami.
I cannot wait.
It’s like anywhere we go with the water – rivers, lakes, oceans or otherwise.
It is the lungs of the earth. The heartbeat.
There is no better way to commune.
Target: 1600 words
Written: 1611 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Stand, Stephen King
Comics: Dynamo 5 22-23, Invincible 64-65
Music: Friction, Baby, Better Than Ezra (what a dick you must have been to have someone name a band after how much better than are than you)Another milestone hit. I might actually finish this thing. I figure I’ve got about three months or so left in Father Lightning, and then, maybe…
Just maybe…
I’ll actually let someone read it.
I’ll celebrate that fact with a nice Perla, and then probably a Kit Kat. Or Aero. Or whatever.
Target: 1600 words
Written: 1850 words, novel: Father Lighting
Read: The Stand, Stephen King (goin' great, boss)
Comics: Dynamo 5 21, Invincible 61-63
Music: Fresh Fruit For Rotting Vegetables, Dead KennedysSometimes, there’s a haiku in a title, without even asking.
Target: 1600 words
Written: 1368 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Stand, Stephen King
Comics: Dynamo 5 20, Invincible 60, Noble Causes 40, Invincible Returns 1
Music: Freeze Frame, The J. Geils Band (wow, that Centerfold is some regressive, misogynist shit, isn't it? Who cares if your girl posed nude in a magazine? Pretty sure the only thing that means is that she's probably pretty hot. They don't let just anyone do that, you know.)The beautiful country, but not a second alone. Stealing pages as one steals breath in the ocean, with nothing to keep afloat.
Vacations from my vacation.
Peace from the loveliness.
Breath, from the deep.
Target: 1600 words
Written: 1060 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Stand, Stephen King (why I chose this on a week I knew I would struggle to read even one page a day, I don't know)
Comics: Noble Causes 39, Brit v2 12, Invincible 59, Dynamo 5 0
Music: Freaky Styley, Red Hot Chili PeppersAs always, it’s a lot of time not doing the things I would like, but it’s still travel, and movement, and not shitty.
Would that I could find a few more moments for reading, and writing.
And silence.
Silence.
Target: 1600 words
Written: 2218 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Stand, Stephen King (here we go)
Comics: Invincible 57-58, The Astounding Wolf-Man 11, Dynamo 5 19
Music: Freaks, PulpSideways. The last two days have been insane.
Thank god we’re off on vacation. I’ve had it.
Oh wait. That’s just as busy.
Target: 1600 words
Written: 905 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Faded Sun: Shon'jir, C.J. Cherryh
Comics: Brit v2 10-11, Noble Causes 38, Invincible 56
Music: Freaked Out And Small (Demos), Presidents Of The United States Of America (in demo form)Not the seriousness of the situation, but the sensation of being pulled down, to my knees, to the floor, to sink in and let my mind bleed out my ears into insensate despair.
I am fighting.
I am not yet losing, but it’s real fuckin’ close.
The kindness thing I can do for myself today is breathe. Continue to breathe.
I’m not sure what the trigger is – probably the monstrous headache I suffered through all day yesterday, and the copious amounts of Advil required to stave off the smallest part of it, plus all the stress of getting everything ready to go away for a week, which should be joyful and peaceful, but is often too busy and people-filled to be so.
Would that I could live in the woods, and release books for free.
Or hide them away, to be discovered after I’m gone, and released to posthumous brilliance.
To the floor, it be, then.
Target: 1600 words
Written: 2383 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Faded Sun: Shon'jir, C.J. Cherryh (perhaps it's just the knowledge of my inferiority)
Comics: Noble Causes 37, Brit v2 9, Invincible 55, Dynamo 5 18
Music: Freaked Out And Small, The Presidents Of The United States Of America (but hopefully, not this last one)