I don’t think I’ve felt this down in a while. I feel like everything is collapsing, and my usual techniques are not up to par.
I am working on it.
Part of me wants to burn it all down and start over (a-fucking-gain), but I’ve come too far and have too little time left to begin again.
At this point, it’s finish the chore of living or give the whole thing up.
I’m not sure what’s worse – trying constantly to make it and failing, or not bothering with it at all.
At least I’d have more free time if I gave up, more time for my family.
But this is the driver; I feel like walking death when I don’t let it out.
Let it fucking out, or let them fucking in. I don’t know which one is worse.
Target: 1200 words
Written: 1084 words, novel: Bad Neighbours
Read: Thieves' World, Assorted Authors
Comics: Fathom: Kiani 4, Fathom v3 0-1, Aspen Showcase: Aspen Matthews 1
Music: Emigre, Anti-Flag