firefucked

So there are wildfires, and my throat hurts, and we’re not even close to them. We’re literally hundreds of kilometres away.

My day, however, as spent rescuing an outdoor cat we were thinking about taking on anyway, when it seemed like she was struggling to breathe in the haze.

We hope we weren’t too late.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 840 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: The Grey Seas Under, Farley Mowat (blown away already)
Comics: Invincible 37-38, Noble Causes 26, Dynamo 5 1
Music: The Fox, April 10, 2006, State Radio

skullfucked

Heat done give me a headache.

And it ain’t goin’ away.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 2337 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Wizard At Large, Terry Brooks
Comics: Noble Causes 24-25, Invincible 35-36
Music: The Four Lads Greatest Hits, The Four Lads (I think there's five of them)

forty nine

One year short of a half-century. Half a century use to seem ancient.

Would that I could start over. What I could do, how I could live, with the things I know now; I don’t mean specific knowledge.

I mean the whole how-to-live thing. What’s important. What to focus on.

When to take action. When to relax.

Wouldacouldashoulda.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 1534 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Wizard At Large, Terry Brooks
Comics: Invincible 33-34, Noble Causes 22-23
Music: Fossil Fuels: The XTC Singles Collection 1977-1992, Discs 1-2, XTC

last of forty-eight

I’ve only a year and a day left until I transition into the guy who wore an onion on his belt, because that was the style at the time.

Half a century and the best I can do is rip off Grampa Simpson.

Man, that’s sad.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 749 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Wizard At Large, Terry Brooks
Comics: Invincible 31-32, Noble Causes 20-21
Music: Forty Licks, The Rolling Stones

here’s the problem

And here’s why it so enervating and dangerous.

Accusations of sexual assault are serious – they need to be treated with seriousness, while maintaining the assumption of innocent until proven guilty for the accused. Balance is required.

However, in our hyper partisan, hyper sensitive climate, even the whiff of an accusation can sink a lefty, mostly because the left actually cares about these things. The right doesn’t, as their overwhelming protectiveness of a known rapist and very likely pedophile attests.

Establishment Democrats know this. They know that there doesn’t need to be any reality behind the accusations. That used to matter; Trump taught them that it no longer makes a difference. The accusation is enough. People still think Haitians were eating people’s pets in Ohio, despite the fact that it was an obvious fabrication.

A true progressive, whose message resonated with what most people want these days, won overwhelmingly in Maine. That’s bad for Democratic donors, and the “middle-of-the-road”, centrist Democrats, which is code for corporate sellouts fighting for billionaires and not people.

So, they come up with scandal after scandal against a grassroots campaigner and strong communicator with a message that really hits home for an overwhelming majority. None of it sticks. He addresses things head-on, apologizes, and to me, shows what we want out of people in reality (or should – many lefties want condemnation and eternal torture, not growth and compassion). He wins with seventy-three percent of the vote – an unprecedented asskicking for establishment politics.

In comes the sexual assault accusation. For years, the left has crowed about believing victims, forgetting about the presumption of innocence. For them to suddenly call for sanity and level heads and waiting for actual facts would seem hypocritical, even though it’s clearly the right thing to do.

The timing, like the last batch of scandals, is convenient; an establishment Hail Mary.

And here’s the thing. If it’s true, I hope they charge him and prosecute fully. If it’s not, I hope he sues the pants off her and the DNC.

But ultimately, it doesn’t matter. True or not, it makes no difference – it took him out as a candidate, and gave the DNC a way to wiggle back in their billionaire friendly candidate, who will lose and possibly doom the whole country by losing the Senate. They’d rather lose and keep their corporate donors happy than save the country from fascism.

And there’s the rub. Because the other thing that’s true, and that all of a sudden, a lot of people who are pissed about the timing and convenience of all this are realizing, is that centrist Dems do not care about them – they care about billionaires. For as much as they talk about being for the people, this makes it incredibly clear.

They absolutely do not. They do not respect the democratic process, and their overuse of the words “open and transparent” when talking about the new race for their candidate suggests that they’re monstrously overcompensating for the fact that they’re about to screw three-hundred million people.

So, what now?

New parties? Republicans are fascists, and Democrats so blatantly corrupt that their hypocrisy is now revealed. They are not just the Chamberlain to Trump’s Hitler. They’re fucking Mussolini.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 2254 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Wizard At Large, Terry Brooks
Comics: The Pact 4, Invincible 29-30, Noble Causes 19
Music: Fortune Faded, Red Hot Chili Peppers

i still have thoughts

But they’ll have to wait for tomorrow – today, I’ve learned that our newest cat and our oldest dog have odd looking growths on their gums and butt respectively, and now, all I can think is that I’ve had nowhere near enough time.

Hold tight to those you love; they could be ripped away at any second.

In this dangerous world, love is a gift, to be given freely and without remorse.

Until it’s gone.

Then, there can be a little remorse.

Or a lot, if it’s as special as my Mazy and Sami.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 1806 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Enchanter's End Game, David Eddings (okay, I know, I know, Eddings is a problematic, kept the kid in the basement and fed him fish heads with my wife kind of problematic, but this was still a strong series, and it ended beautifully.  I teared up a little at Polgara giving up all her power at the end, and then... well. I won't spoil it.  It's a goddamn shame that these days, no one can be brilliant without the caveat of cancellation.  I'm not saying he was right in what he did; I am saying we don't know what his eventual response was - this was all pre-publication.  Maybe he learned from it.  Maybe he grew.  Maybe his philosophies were shaped by his mistakes, in a way that opposed the error of his ways.  All I'm saying is that there are zero people in this world that are perfect; what matters is growth and change, not perfection.  If we insist on perfection, we end up with heartbreak.  Best to take a wider approach).
Comics: Marvel Team-Ups 14, Noble Causes 17-18, Invincible 28
Music: Forth, The Verve (sully on)

i have thoughts

I have to organize them, because the political climate automatically stigmatizes certain things, which is why certain allegations will always kill a campaign, regardless of truth, unless you’re a Republican, in which child rape is apparently still not the boundary of disqualification.

However, I want to say it right, because there are important conversations to be had around consent, around the presumption of guilt, and on the growing conclusion that the core of the Democratic establishment is, in fact, little better than their Republican counterparts, and needs to be ousted just as decisively as any and all Republicans.

Perhaps new parties are needed.

Certainly, it seems that way to me.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 1156 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Enchanter's End Game, David Eddings
Comics: Noble Causes 14-16, Invincible 27
Music: Forgiveness Rock Record, Broken Social Scene

well that got away from me

Stupid me, doing actual work at the job that pays me. It takes too much time away from my goofing off.

Is there a way to get paid for goofing off?

Yes.

Many, Empty.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 1527 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Enchanter's End Game, David Eddings
Comics: Noble Causes 14-16, Invincible 27
Music: FOREVER, Cracker (FOREVER)

three lightnings down

Third draft done.

I’m hoping there’s only a couple left, but I suspect I’ve got a long way to go.

A long way to go.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 1790 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Enchanter's End Game, David Eddings
Comics: Invincible 23, Noble Causes 11-12, The Pact 3
Music: Forbidden Places, Meat Puppets

exhale

The anger is going.

It is not gone, but the only way to truly forgive oneself is to let go.

Let go and take action.

That’s all one can do.

One cannot be free until one lets go of guilt, and then moves to make amends.

Or at the very least, not to repeat the mistake.

Target: 1600 words
Written: 1594 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Enchanter's End Game, David Eddings
Comics: The Pact 1-2, Noble Causes 10, Invincible 0
Music: For Tomorrow, Blur