Author: admin

you still have to write stuff

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And read.

And write.

And submit.

And follow up.

And debate whether it’s worth putting up stories on literary sites for critique when idiot admins are only going to fail to recognize that the misogynist is the BAD GUY. Seriously, I’ve two other stories I’d like to put up on Wattpad, one about a woman who gets revenge on a guy who kills a girl for rejecting him and another about a man who rants on how terrible his wife is, only to realize his neglect, infidelity and emotional abuse has caused her to commit suicide.

These are not ambiguous stories, in terms of who the bad guy is.

But I’m afraid, since Get Back Again was pulled, because whoever complained and whoever was responsible for reviewing the claim saw the story and missed the fucking point.

THE BAD GUY IS THE POV.

HE’S THE FUCKING BAD GUY.

It’s not a manifesto; it’s a bad dude who’s perspective is that he’s a good guy.

We’re all the heroes of our own stories, isn’t that the platitude?

Apparently, no one told them.

If it’s not a werewolf or vampire bad boy romance, they don’t care.

Target: 1400 words
Written: 3687 words, comic: The Stuff #3

Read: Full Catastrophe Living, Jon Kabat-Zinn
Comics: Fables 130-131, Fairest 16, The Unwritten 50
Music: Working On A Dream, Bruce Springsteen (more like nightmare, today)

why are some things so bad?

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Like this insanely bad commercial for Tim Hortons (which admittedly, is awful at basically everything).

How does something get that bad?

We talk about the human condition, and human potential, which I’ve been thinking about a lot lately because of The Stuff, and I think…

How is that someone’s potential? To make a fucking TERRIBLE commercial with an AWFUL jingle for BAD food? That’s what you chose for your life?

Fuck, man. I know I’m no great shakes, but shit. I’m not I-make-ads-that-even-the-MOST-mediocre-can-look-down-on bad.

Right?

Target: 1400 words
Written: 495 words, comic: The Stuff 3

Read: Full Catastrophe Living, Jon Kabat-Zinn
Comics: Fables 128-129, Fairest 14-15
Music: Working Class Hero: A Tribute To John Lennon, Screaming Tress (and others, presumably, but that's all I got)

absolution

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I don’t think we get absolution in this life. All we do is all we are, and it never stops coming back to haunt us.

All it takes is a flicker; the pit opens. Guilt consumes.

Things said. Things done.

Things not done. Things not said.

Roads not taken and all that good shit. Roads taken, but driven with the speed of a maniacal drunk, or a fugitive with no regard for life or limb.

I do not believe in sorry forever. I do believe in sorry now.

There is no absolution, even in forgiveness.

Target: 1400 words
Written: 317 words, comic: The Stuff #3

Read: Full Catastrophe Living, Jon Kabat-Zinn
Comics: Fables 126-127, Fairest 12-13
Music: Working Class Hero, Green Day (by way of John Lennon)

noise for dogs

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I choose silence; they do not.

The TV is endless.

Target: 1400 words
Written: 671 words, comic: The Stuff #2

Read: Secrets And Lies: Digital Security In A Networked World, Bruce Schneier (good read, took me back to my script kiddie days)
Comics: Fables 124-125, Fairest 10-11
Music: Workbook, Bob Mould

sellin’

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I was reading old posts (Christ, 2024 Empty, what the fuck were you thinking?) and I still haven’t figured it out.

How the fuck do I get people to buy my stuff without having to go full social media whore or pretend to be something I’m not?

People both love and hate preachy; see Tolle, Eckhart.

But I hate it. I’d rather be honest (even if I’m not always) and show warts and say, here, I did something cool!

Or better yet, take myself fully out of the equation.

Here’s a cool thing. Enjoy!

Don’t worry about the man behind the mask. We never used to.

Now, it’s up to us to be paragons, or be cancelled.

Unfortunately, only one of those things is ever actually possible. Anything else is a fucking act.

PR to stave off the betrayal when people find out we aren’t actually perfect.

Flawed in private, public perfection. Fuck that. I’m perfectly imperfect, and proud of it.

It’s the only way we ever could be. It’s only how we feel about that fact that makes a difference.

Target: 1400 words
Written: 1267 words, comic: The Stuff #2

Read: Secrets And Lies: Digital Security In A Networked World, Bruce Schneier (we're into the weeds now)
Comics: Fables 122-123, Fairest 8-9
Music: Woody Guthrie Essentials, Woody Guthrie (how apropos is Lindbergh?)

bangin’

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A very productive day, all around.

Well, except for this.

Target: 1400 words
Written: 3425 words, comic: The Stuff #2

Read: Secrets And Lies: Digital Security In A Networked World, Bruce Schneier
Comics: Fairest 6-7, Fables 121, Fables: Werewolves Of The Heartland 1
Music: Wolves In Wolves' Clothing, NOFX

do you have it?

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I don’t, I don’t think.

I’ve been thinking a lot about the right stuff, the thing that makes astronauts what they are.

This is due to the series I’m writing right now, wherein I question the nature of the stuff and show it’s not innate; it’s learned.

And unlearned.

Do I have it?

I don’t know.

We’ll know by the time I’m dead, I guess.

Or not. That’s the way of the stuff. You never really know until you’re in it.

Am I in it?

I doubt it.

Target: 1400 words
Written: 402 words, comic: The Stuff #2

Read: Secrets And Lies: Digital Security In A Networked World, Bruce Schneier
Comics: Fairest 4-5, Fables 119-120
Music: Wolves, Rise Against

it’s all popping off, isn’t it?

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What’s it going to take to put a stop to these assholes?

Fear. Personal, individual fear on the part of the agents, senators, representatives, “journalists”, etc., that work for them.

Threaten them personally, because they’re most in it for their own selfish cruelty, and that will make them hesitant to do what the orange Fuhrer demands.

Threaten them financially. Expose their shady acts. Make it so they can’t go out to eat without protestors.

And if Trump continues to go full Hitler…

Go Jack Kirby on ’em.

How far does this have to go? How long before billionaires and their enablers are being dragged from their houses? Civil war is not unavoidable – some sanity from the people on the right who can turn still would do it.

Stand up, assholes. No one wants the world to plunge into World War 3.

Break with dementia Don, and do the right fucking thing for once in your meager existence. Go back to your grift after, once things have settled.

Or maybe, learn something from this, and realize.

YOU’RE THE FUCKING BAD GUYS.

Target: 1400 words
Written: 459 words, comic: The Stuff #2

Read: Secrets And Lies: Digital Security In A Networked World, Bruce Schneier
Comics: Fairest 2-3, Fables 117-118
Music: Without You I'm Nothing, Placebo

minneapolis

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Jesus Christ.

ICE is a terrorist organization.

Motherfuckers.

Target: 1400 words
Written: 517 words, comic: The Stuff #1

Read: Secrets And Lies: Digital Security In A Networked World, Bruce Schneier
Comics: Fables 114-116, Fairest 1
Music: Without A Sound, Dinosaur Jr.

i pull a card every day

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It’s a wishful thinking thing, like a horoscope, but more personal.

Today was supposed to be a good day.

And it had its moments.

But mostly, I wanted to fall asleep. To do the few things I needed to do (read, write, sex, etc.) and go the fuck to sleep.

I did edit. And I read, a little. Not as much as I’d like. If I want to do any better at it, I’ll have to do it before bed.

Which I hate.

I’m already exhausted. Why rush it? Of course, if I don’t do it, it establishes precedent. Starts a habit. You know how in your mind, once you do something, even once, it becomes possible to do it again and again? The whole four minute mile thing, and sadly, acts of evil. Do it once and you know you’re capable of it.

Do it again, and well…

Let’s just say Donald has practice. This doesn’t happen overnight. His soul is as warped as a soul can possibly be.

But let’s not think about him. I have a couple more issues of Fables I’d like to read…

Target: 1400 words
Written: 2017 words, comic: The Stuff

Read: Secrets And Lies: Digital Security In A Networked World, Bruce Schneier (fascinating stuff - never know I could be so into cryptology, outside of Digital Fortress)
Comics: Fables 110-113
Music: Within A Mile From Home, Flogging Molly