Category: health

strokin’?

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I’m re-reading the scene I wrote yesterday and I have questions about my mindset.

For example, I used the word dude instead of dug, and referred to someone getting on their hands and knees as being on “all floor”.

I might be glitching out.

Target: 1500 words
Written: 584 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: The Legend Of Bagger Vance, Steven Pressfield
Comics: Gen 13 v4 21-24
Music: 70s Soft Rock Essentials, Various (I mean, I did this for my wife, and while I'm cool with stuff like Ride, Captain, Ride, Ooh La La, and Elton John, like who the fuck thought Boz Scaggs was good? Take the most generic, corporate, boring fucking bullshit with no heart, no intelligence and no emotional content and put it over music that isn't even fucking catchy? It's no wonder punk rock blew up. Between Boz Scaggs and Dan Fogelberg, I wanted to pop my eardrums.)

good friday

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You know what? It was a good Friday.

Time off, time to write, time to read and play video games?

I’ll fuckin’ take it.

Target: 1500 words
Written: 1428 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Harry Potter And The Philosopher's Stone , J.K. (don't call me Joanne) Rowling
Comics: Gen 13 v4 13-16
Music: 54-40 Essentials, 54-40 (nice to love you, baby)

welcome to the shitshow

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Holy fuck. Couldn’t focus on anything at all today.

Failure of a day. Failure of a man.

I think maybe it’s time to go.

Target: 1500 words
Written: 878 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: Harry Potter And The Philosopher's Stone, J.K. (don't call me TERF) Rowling
Comics: Gen 13 v4 10-12, Gen 13: Armageddon 1
Music: 50 Cent Essentials, 50 Cent

fuckin’ weird, man

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Strange things are happening today. My body appears to be doing things without my mind, and my mind is doing things and forgetting them completely.

Who’s in charge, you say?

I’ve no idea.

Target: 1500 words
Written: 1421 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: The Kandy-Kolored Tangerine-Flake Streamline Baby, Tom Wolfe
Comics: Gen 13 v3 2-5
Music: 4 Nights At The Palais Royale, Sloan

my doctor was supposed to call me

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But surprise, he didn’t.

Not only has he (like my doctor that retired and the various clinic/ER doctors I saw while I was without a primary care physician) ignored everything I said to him about pain and discomfort in my abdomen, doing no tests (like the others) and blowing it off “gas” (here, have a pill!), he couldn’t even be bothered to follow up on the change in blood pressure medication he gave me (which has made the situation ten times worse.)

For every Dr. Robbie or Meredith Grey, there are a thousand doctors who don’t give a fuck, for whom it’s just a job, who no longer care, or who graduated bottom of the class.

Someone had to, right?

Target: 1500 words
Written: 257 words, novel: Bad Neighbours

Read: Code And The Laws Of Cyberspace, Lawrence Lessig
Comics: GenActive 4, Gen 13 v2 61-62, Gen 13/Fantastic Four 1
Music: The 2nd Law, Muse

no masseuse for me

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I gave it to my wife because while a massage is nice, I don’t really necessarily need them. I prefer a lighter massage, and if I’m really being honest, I’d rather it be sensual, rather than clinical (not that I’m asking a RMT to do such things – I meant my significant other).

But, I guess they’re good for you?

Personally, I could do with some muscle relaxers.

Target: 1500 words
Written: 308 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: The Twenty-Seventh City, Jonathan Franzen
Comics: Gen 13/Monkeyman & O'Brien 2, Gen 13 v2 33-34, Gen 13: Magical Dream Queen Roxy 1
Music: 20/20 Division, Anti-Flag

options

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I know it’s pop or whatever, but I feel Cameron Whitcomb’s Options in my gut. I never think of myself as an alcoholic, though my sister-in-law loves to imply it, though her husband actually drinks harder liquor than I do, more often.

He’s prone to get a right buzz on; I just like a couple of beers at the pool or a glass of wine with dinner.

And that, only two to three times a week, if I’m lucky.

Of course, there’s more of that when we’re on vacation, but fuck, you’re on vacation.

If you can’t let your hair down a little on vacation, what kind of vacation is it?

Target: 1500 words
Written: 2139 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: The Twenty-Seventh City, Jonathan Franzen
Comics: Gen 12 5, Gen 13 v2 31-32, Gen 13 Bootleg 20
Music: 20/20, The Beach Boys

blood pressure

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This new drug is not working. I weened off the other stuff and into this new one and it is not doing the trick.

Things are worse than they’ve been since before I started taking anything.

I think my doctor might be trying to kill me, through negligence, if not actual malice.

Target: 1500 words
Written: 2342 words, novel: Father Lightning

Read: A Vindication Of The Rights Of Woman, Mary Wollstonecraft
Comics: Gen 13 Bootleg 2-3, Gen 13 v2 16, -1
Music: December 28, 1991, Pat O'Brien Pavilion, Del Mar, Nirvana

one more street

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Ha! Another lesson learned!

Or rather, the same lesson, two days apart.

We parked on the boardwalk of Ayamonte, Spain, and while it’s a nice boardwalk, it’s not exactly appealing. One street in, gorgeous.

Of course, I wasn’t really feeling that great still, but man, what a beautiful place.

Oh, and it’s flu, because now my wife is sick, and she didn’t have the shrimp yesterday. 

Target: 1500 words
Written: 2036 words, short story: Ultra Mundane

Read: Catch-22, Joseph Heller
Comics: Batman vs. Bigby! A Wolf In Gotham 4-6, Fables 151
Music: 17 Song Demo, Anti-Flag