You know what? It was a good Friday.
Time off, time to write, time to read and play video games?
I’ll fuckin’ take it.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 1428 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: Harry Potter And The Philosopher's Stone , J.K. (don't call me Joanne) Rowling
Comics: Gen 13 v4 13-16
Music: 54-40 Essentials, 54-40 (nice to love you, baby)Holy fuck. Couldn’t focus on anything at all today.
Failure of a day. Failure of a man.
I think maybe it’s time to go.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 878 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: Harry Potter And The Philosopher's Stone, J.K. (don't call me TERF) Rowling
Comics: Gen 13 v4 10-12, Gen 13: Armageddon 1
Music: 50 Cent Essentials, 50 CentStrange things are happening today. My body appears to be doing things without my mind, and my mind is doing things and forgetting them completely.
Who’s in charge, you say?
I’ve no idea.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 1421 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Kandy-Kolored Tangerine-Flake Streamline Baby, Tom Wolfe
Comics: Gen 13 v3 2-5
Music: 4 Nights At The Palais Royale, SloanBut surprise, he didn’t.
Not only has he (like my doctor that retired and the various clinic/ER doctors I saw while I was without a primary care physician) ignored everything I said to him about pain and discomfort in my abdomen, doing no tests (like the others) and blowing it off “gas” (here, have a pill!), he couldn’t even be bothered to follow up on the change in blood pressure medication he gave me (which has made the situation ten times worse.)
For every Dr. Robbie or Meredith Grey, there are a thousand doctors who don’t give a fuck, for whom it’s just a job, who no longer care, or who graduated bottom of the class.
Someone had to, right?
Target: 1500 words
Written: 257 words, novel: Bad Neighbours
Read: Code And The Laws Of Cyberspace, Lawrence Lessig
Comics: GenActive 4, Gen 13 v2 61-62, Gen 13/Fantastic Four 1
Music: The 2nd Law, MuseI gave it to my wife because while a massage is nice, I don’t really necessarily need them. I prefer a lighter massage, and if I’m really being honest, I’d rather it be sensual, rather than clinical (not that I’m asking a RMT to do such things – I meant my significant other).
But, I guess they’re good for you?
Personally, I could do with some muscle relaxers.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 308 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Twenty-Seventh City, Jonathan Franzen
Comics: Gen 13/Monkeyman & O'Brien 2, Gen 13 v2 33-34, Gen 13: Magical Dream Queen Roxy 1
Music: 20/20 Division, Anti-FlagI know it’s pop or whatever, but I feel Cameron Whitcomb’s Options in my gut. I never think of myself as an alcoholic, though my sister-in-law loves to imply it, though her husband actually drinks harder liquor than I do, more often.
He’s prone to get a right buzz on; I just like a couple of beers at the pool or a glass of wine with dinner.
And that, only two to three times a week, if I’m lucky.
Of course, there’s more of that when we’re on vacation, but fuck, you’re on vacation.
If you can’t let your hair down a little on vacation, what kind of vacation is it?
Target: 1500 words
Written: 2139 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Twenty-Seventh City, Jonathan Franzen
Comics: Gen 12 5, Gen 13 v2 31-32, Gen 13 Bootleg 20
Music: 20/20, The Beach BoysThis new drug is not working. I weened off the other stuff and into this new one and it is not doing the trick.
Things are worse than they’ve been since before I started taking anything.
I think my doctor might be trying to kill me, through negligence, if not actual malice.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 2342 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: A Vindication Of The Rights Of Woman, Mary Wollstonecraft
Comics: Gen 13 Bootleg 2-3, Gen 13 v2 16, -1
Music: December 28, 1991, Pat O'Brien Pavilion, Del Mar, NirvanaHa! Another lesson learned!
Or rather, the same lesson, two days apart.
We parked on the boardwalk of Ayamonte, Spain, and while it’s a nice boardwalk, it’s not exactly appealing. One street in, gorgeous.
Of course, I wasn’t really feeling that great still, but man, what a beautiful place.
Oh, and it’s flu, because now my wife is sick, and she didn’t have the shrimp yesterday.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 2036 words, short story: Ultra Mundane
Read: Catch-22, Joseph Heller
Comics: Batman vs. Bigby! A Wolf In Gotham 4-6, Fables 151
Music: 17 Song Demo, Anti-FlagFucking shrimp. Or it could be the flu. Or something in the water?
I’ve shit a bunch, dry heaved once (I don’t actually puke – I can count on one hand the number of times I’ve thrown up since the ninth grade), and slept the rest of the day.
What a shame.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 989 words, short story: Ultra Mundane
Read: Catch-22, Joseph Heller
Comics: Everafter: From The Pages Of Fables 12, Batman vs. Bigby! A Wolf In Gotham 1-3
Music: 16 Biggest Hits: Johnny Cash, Johnny CashAt first, it was stress for my baby girl, but it turns out, she’s going to be okay. She’ll have to learn balance all over again, and she still walks like a drunk on black ice, but she’s going to live.
It sucks for her, but we were so not ready to lose another one.
What really made me sick was making the mistake of reading some of the Epstein emails.
America, either you’ve got incredible self-control, unbelievable cowardice or unmitigated depravity, but how you haven’t picked up the torches and pitchforks and marched on the homes and offices of every single billionaire or politician named in those files is beyond me.
I suspect it’s a matter of all three, but holy hell. If you haven’t read these things, you should know it’s so much worse than you could ever imagine. Fiction isn’t that inhuman and sadistic.
An anger came up from somewhere absolutely primal reading some of these excerpts. I’m absolutely abhorred. It makes me ill.
These monsters aren’t human.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 898 words, short story: Skeleton Park
Read: The Tipping Point, Malcolm Gladwell
Comics: Fables: The Wolf Among Us 29-32
Music: 12 Angry Months, Local H (great album)