If all of my kindness goes towards my cats and dogs?
I mean, that’s kindness, right?
Even if I’m an absolute misanthrope to everyone else?
Is that the way it works?
Target: 1500 words
Written: 2015 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Twenty-Seventh City, Jonathan Franzen
Comics: Gen 12 4, Gen 13 v2 30, Gen 13 Bootleg 19, Gen 13/Monkeyman & O'Brien 1
Music: 20 Years Of Hell, Vol IV, Anti-Flag/One If By LandA busy fuckin’ day.
Why? Where’s my life? Who’s in control?
It sure ain’t me.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 520 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Twenty-Seventh City, Jonathan Franzen
Comics: Gen 13 v2 28-29, Gen 12 3, Gen 13 Bootleg 18
Music: 20 Years Of Hell, Vol III, Anti-Flag/Worship This!They’re both off at college now and we no longer have our weekly dinners. I know we weren’t as tight as we used to be when they were younger, but the younger one has a superb connection with her aunt, and the elder was more like me.
Quiet, enjoyed music and books, into weird shit, but cool with it.
I’m not sure what happened.
We don’t even talk when we do see each other.
I miss them, an awful lot, but it’s not really about me. It’s about them living their lives.
Few people have meant so much to me in my days, and it’s a shame we have to drift apart.
Still, their lives await. All I ever want for anyone is for them to be happy, so go be happy.
I’ll be here if you feel like shooting the shit.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 2570 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Twenty-Seventh City, Jonathan Franzen
Comics: Gen 13 v2 27, Gen 13/Generation X: Harvest Of Evil 1, Gen 13 Bootleg 17, Gen 12 2
Music: 20 Years Of Hell, Vol II, Anti-Flag/All DinosaursI’m thinking about kindness today. It’s because I’m writing a book where it’s a large part of it, and while I need kindness to play a large role in my life and my person, I find I’m having difficulty tapping into it.
I think the past two-plus years of wallowing and anger have dulled my sense of compassion. I am an empathic being; I feel everything intensely. I am highly affected by other people’s moods.
But that makes me want to withdraw, not connect.
And what I need is connect.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 324 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Twenty-Seventh City, Jonathan Franzen
Comics: Gen 13 v2 26, Gen 13 Bootleg 16, Gen 12 1, Gen 13 Bootleg Annual 1
Music: 20 Years Of Hell, Vol I, Anti-Flag/World's Scariest Police Chases (they call him ROBOCOP)So. Goddamned. Tired.
How can this be a real world?
In what version of a divine being’s creation is this shit normal?
What kind of sick fuck would create something like this?
Only the cruel or the incompetent could build something so inherently awful.
Fuck you, God.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 2479 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Twenty-Seventh City, Jonathan Franzen
Comics: Gen 13 v2 25, Gen 13 Bootleg 14-15, Gen 13 Interactive Plus 3
Music: 2+2=5, RadioheadHow the fuck did that happen?
Portugal still has me so far behind, plus, you know, life.
Life is a real character, ain’t it?
Target: 1500 words
Written: 496 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Twenty-Seventh City, Jonathan Franzen
Comics: Gen 13 Interactive Plus 1-2, Gen 13 v2 24, Gen 13 Bootleg 13
Music: June 26, 1999, Metro/Smart Bar, Local HYesterday’s post was identifying where I’d examined previously. I cover lots of little things in my smaller works, but the big themes of my life, I try to save for the canon.
The Mungk was trauma/fatalism.
The Conflagration Of Boor And Aghast is about tribalism and the pointlessness of dualism with substance, subtlety and consequence.
Father Lightning? It’s not going to be a tale of woe; or rather, it is, but there is, as there should be in all great novels of fear, a sense of humanity.
Of kindness.
Compassion.
I spent nearly a year wallowing over the hopelessness of it all with The Mungk. I spent over a year mired in the politics of mutual hate with Boor & Aghast.
It’s time for some higher focus.
It’s time to focus on a little kindness. A little compassion.
it’s time to make the world a little better place. Rather than navelgazing and moaning into the void, or raging against everyone who doesn’t agree with my side in mutually assured destruction, I’m going to learn how to be nice.
It may take more effort than I’ve got.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 2506 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: A Vindication Of The Rights Of Woman, Mary Wollstonecraft
Comics: Gen 13 v2 22-23, Gen 13 Bootleg 11-12
Music: February 22, 1994, Palaghiaccio, Rome, Nirvana (and thus ends, for now, my collection of Nirvana bootlegs)I tried to leave fatalism behind with The Mungk. The point of that book was an exploration of trauma and hopelessness; the point of The Conflagration Of Boor & Aghast was to explore the nature of unwinnable conflict.
(As well as offer a reminder that placating and avoiding the application of consequences, or the inequal application of consequences, leads to inevitable decline, abuses and ultimately, horror. The application of consequences is critical to both freedom and the suppression of would-be authoritarians.)
It is increasingly difficult to ignore that the United States is at the forefront of these two themes, mashed together into a nightmare of impending Armageddon.
All of which could be stopped by removal of one man.
Vladimir Putin (or by proxy, Trump).
This is your daily reminder that the enemy is not trans people, people of other colours, nationalities or gender, but rather, the ultra fucking rich.
THERE IS ONLY ONE ENEMY.
Remove them from power and guess what?
All of this shit goes away.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 143 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: A Vindication Of The Rights Of Woman, Mary Wollstonecraft
Comics: Gen 13/Generation X 1, Gen 13: The Unreal World 1, Gen 13 v2 21, Gen 13 Bootleg 10
Music: January 8, 1994, Seattle Centre Arena, Seattle, Disc 1-2, NirvanaWell, he’s gone and done it. He’s going to kill us all. The first thing Iran is going to do is shut down the Strait and up go oil prices, which has a knock-on effect and we’re all fucked. They’re not as weak as Iraq or Afghanistan and the States couldn’t win there either, with competent leaders, let alone these bumbling fuck-sticks.
It’s only a matter of time now.
Target; 1500 words
Written: 2404 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: A Vindication Of The Rights Of Woman, Mary Wollstonecraft
Comics: Gen 13 v2 20, Gen 13 Bootleg 8-9, Gen 13 Yearbook '97 1
Music: November 1994, Astoria Theatre, London, Beck (bet you thought it was going to be Nirvana)I thought I did it here. But here is a Friday night, and there’s too much going on to forget.
Or too much going on to remember.
Early onset Alzheimer’s is a bitch.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 1769 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: A Vindication Of The Rights Of Woman, Mary Wollstonecraft
Comics: Gen 13 Bootleg 6-7, Gen 13 v2 19, Gen 13 Annual 1
Music: August 30, 1992, Reading Festival, Nirvana