So. Goddamned. Tired.
How can this be a real world?
In what version of a divine being’s creation is this shit normal?
What kind of sick fuck would create something like this?
Only the cruel or the incompetent could build something so inherently awful.
Fuck you, God.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 2479 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Twenty-Seventh City, Jonathan Franzen
Comics: Gen 13 v2 25, Gen 13 Bootleg 14-15, Gen 13 Interactive Plus 3
Music: 2+2=5, RadioheadHow the fuck did that happen?
Portugal still has me so far behind, plus, you know, life.
Life is a real character, ain’t it?
Target: 1500 words
Written: 496 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: The Twenty-Seventh City, Jonathan Franzen
Comics: Gen 13 Interactive Plus 1-2, Gen 13 v2 24, Gen 13 Bootleg 13
Music: June 26, 1999, Metro/Smart Bar, Local HYesterday’s post was identifying where I’d examined previously. I cover lots of little things in my smaller works, but the big themes of my life, I try to save for the canon.
The Mungk was trauma/fatalism.
The Conflagration Of Boor And Aghast is about tribalism and the pointlessness of dualism with substance, subtlety and consequence.
Father Lightning? It’s not going to be a tale of woe; or rather, it is, but there is, as there should be in all great novels of fear, a sense of humanity.
Of kindness.
Compassion.
I spent nearly a year wallowing over the hopelessness of it all with The Mungk. I spent over a year mired in the politics of mutual hate with Boor & Aghast.
It’s time for some higher focus.
It’s time to focus on a little kindness. A little compassion.
it’s time to make the world a little better place. Rather than navelgazing and moaning into the void, or raging against everyone who doesn’t agree with my side in mutually assured destruction, I’m going to learn how to be nice.
It may take more effort than I’ve got.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 2506 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: A Vindication Of The Rights Of Woman, Mary Wollstonecraft
Comics: Gen 13 v2 22-23, Gen 13 Bootleg 11-12
Music: February 22, 1994, Palaghiaccio, Rome, Nirvana (and thus ends, for now, my collection of Nirvana bootlegs)I tried to leave fatalism behind with The Mungk. The point of that book was an exploration of trauma and hopelessness; the point of The Conflagration Of Boor & Aghast was to explore the nature of unwinnable conflict.
(As well as offer a reminder that placating and avoiding the application of consequences, or the inequal application of consequences, leads to inevitable decline, abuses and ultimately, horror. The application of consequences is critical to both freedom and the suppression of would-be authoritarians.)
It is increasingly difficult to ignore that the United States is at the forefront of these two themes, mashed together into a nightmare of impending Armageddon.
All of which could be stopped by removal of one man.
Vladimir Putin (or by proxy, Trump).
This is your daily reminder that the enemy is not trans people, people of other colours, nationalities or gender, but rather, the ultra fucking rich.
THERE IS ONLY ONE ENEMY.
Remove them from power and guess what?
All of this shit goes away.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 143 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: A Vindication Of The Rights Of Woman, Mary Wollstonecraft
Comics: Gen 13/Generation X 1, Gen 13: The Unreal World 1, Gen 13 v2 21, Gen 13 Bootleg 10
Music: January 8, 1994, Seattle Centre Arena, Seattle, Disc 1-2, NirvanaThis new drug is not working. I weened off the other stuff and into this new one and it is not doing the trick.
Things are worse than they’ve been since before I started taking anything.
I think my doctor might be trying to kill me, through negligence, if not actual malice.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 2342 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: A Vindication Of The Rights Of Woman, Mary Wollstonecraft
Comics: Gen 13 Bootleg 2-3, Gen 13 v2 16, -1
Music: December 28, 1991, Pat O'Brien Pavilion, Del Mar, NirvanaThe first draft of Father Lightning is begun.
The mix of horror, gore, love and kindness will hopefully make for a great story.
At the very least, it will help me better understand the concept of the latter.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 1487 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: A Vindication Of The Rights Of Woman, Mary Wollstonecraft
Comics: Gen 13 Bootleg 1, Spider-Man/Gen 13 1, Team X/Team 7 1, Gen 13 v2 15
Music: November 25, 1991, Paradiso, Amsterdam, NirvanaBut I don’t miss roundabouts. What a ridiculous concept.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 774 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: Sum: Forty Tales Of The Afterlife, David Eagleman (what a wonderful concept, or rather, forty concepts - I particularly love the idea of God as microbe, so small that it thinks nothing of us, because we're too big to even comprehend)
Comics: Gen 13 v2 13A-C, 14
Music: August 27, 1991, Aladin, Bremen, NirvanaToday, it’s all about the beans.
And the heat.
And driving to Amherstburg to drink boozy hot chocolate and judge between eight different chili makers.
Can’t wait for that sweet, sweet chili powder.
Oh, and we’re bringing the dogs.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 1309 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: Coming Through Slaughter, Michael Ondaatje
Comics: Team 7 v3 4, Gen 13 v2 11-12, Gen 13: Ordinary Heroes 2
Music: November 25, 1990, Off Ramp, Seattle, NirvanaThe Sabbath. Black Sabbath, that is.
No, sorry, kidding. We’re not religious over here.
It’s just a lazy Saturday. FINALLY.
Target: 1500 words
Written: 1996 words, novel: Father Lightning
Read: Coming Through Slaughter, Michael Ondaatje
Comics: Team 7 v3 2-3, Gen 13 v2 9-10
Music: August 17, 1990, Palladium, Hollywood, Nirvana